~mindless thoughts~

Tis the season to be jolly... Fa la la la la la la la la..?
well, it is the season to be jolly.. and yes, i'm starting to feel it. christmas is coming and i am glad to be spending it in New York with friends.. at least its something to look forward to. oh and i gotta remember to go look for a "pink selena gomez t-shirt".. goodness, wat have i gotten myself into..? but i realized, when there are no classes, no studying to do, no rehearsals, nothing to occupy myself apart from going online and working out at the gym, its during times like these that i start thinking through things.. like REALLY thinking..

what am i doing here? where am i going with this? what will i be doing in the years to come.? will i still be here? will i live out my dream? will i fulfill my life's purpose.? will i have a chance to get what i want, who i want, when i want it? will i get to perform in front of thousands just like how i've been dreaming and hoping for years.?
its hard to answer questions like these. i guess this is wat people think of when they are so far away from home.? i dont know..

even questions like.....

will i get to be a daddy? will i get to have kids.? will i even get to be married..? hahaha.. (all in good time oliver) that is wat i keep thinking about.. but you know wat? the greatest thing about this, is that i do NOT have to fear, i do NOT have to worry. for i know that God is watching over me, and He knows the outcome of my life.. though sometimes it may be hard to believe that fully, but hey, isn't that wat faith is all about?

wat i find weird is people asking me, "Oliver, why do you go to the gym so often? dont you get tired or bored?" well, the typical, straight forward answer of mine is, "DUH, to work out?"
but the answer to the questions is yes.. i do get tired, but never bored.. i find myself being able to think at the gym. and i like thinking about stuff.. like just today, i was working out and i was think about someone, so i prayed for that person.. i do that a lot here. just going through my routine and praying for random stuff.. besides, its fun thinking through things.

*am i annoying you yet by the word "thinking" and the amount of times i used it in this post?*

the one thing i like to do before i sleep, apart from praying, is think.. just going through the day in my mind, see how productive i was. sometimes its hard to think of any productive thing i've done in that particular day, but i always believe, that no matter wat, there are bound to be some productive stuff in a day, we just may not be able to see it..

well, as someone said to me, i guess that's enough rambling for today.. lol.. time to go sleep.. just need to close my eyes and relax my mind.. but wait! not before i THINK of today. :)

mindless thoughts? to some, yes.. to me.., i dont think so..

ollie d'... signing out...

~just another day in paradise~

1. Exams.......... over.

2. Classes......... over.

3. Christmas Show.......... over.

4. Choir........... over.

5. Life........ over..?

NOPE!! it has just begun. this is the perfect time for me to get much needed sleep and long awaited rest.. finally, no more shows during the weekends, no more practicing piano and voice at the practice rooms in the music building, no more early morning classes to attend.. i'm free..!! for now.. everything's over and done with for the year. now all i gotta do is to just enjoy myself in New York during Christmas break.. it feels so odd, not worrying about Voice lessons, or Juries, or even assignments for that matter.. but hey, I AIN'T COMPLAINING!!!

i do feel bad for 1 reason though.. those friends whom i had made in this first semester here, got close to them and got to know them really well, a few of them are leaving due to finances or the stress of the program, or even changing majors.. i am going to miss you guys.. Thomas Nan, you are a great friend. my gym buddy, fellow performer and jazz appreciator. i will wait to see you again, may your dreams be fulfilled in Dallas. thank God for facebook. at least we can still keep in contact.. Kelli G, you are awesome.. will miss seeing you at auditions and classes though.. but i know we will get to perform again together soon.. i hope.. lol.. but hey, your new major does sound exciting, though not for me. Nutrition..? not my cup of tea.. :P

well, right now, i'm feeling a lil down. trying to bring myself up again. i sure hope to be lifted up before Christmas.. would hate to be sad then. haha.. do continue to pray for me people.. i need it.
i've got some good news to share.. but that will be a story for another day.. God bless..

ollie d... signing out...